sueryuu:

He would always tell me this. And I guess he was right. The twenties are the confusing years of our existence. We come to terms with the world, and then detest it, and struggle with it, and get so submerged in it we lose ourselves.

He broke my heart a thousand times, such feelings shouldn’t have to be experienced. 

No matter how much love you give away, you always have to kinda keep this mindset that your love is not going to be reciprocated. Even though getting my heart broken was very bizarre and overwhelming for me, I am glad I went through it, because now I know what it is like. Now I can really go and search for the person who will deserve my trust. 

I learned a lot the past year I spent being in love with him. The whole thing was so surreal and crazy I won’t ever forget it. I am sure he won’t forget it either. 

As for now, I don’t know if I am capable of hating someone, but I am certainly not apathetic, but neither am I sad, or angry, or regretting, or suffering. I resent him a little, naturally. It’s still a wonder for me how I built so much expectation for him that I am so disappointed. But this resentment, naturally as it came, will hopefully fade away soon.